I never expected to get cancer once, let alone twice. I am lucky. I found the cancer both times – took action, got checked and set off on the would-be roller coaster of a journey. I’d like to say 2 years on that the ride is over.
It’s definitely less bumpy – but it doesn’t feel exactly over.
On the less-than-positive side, I live with a daily reminder of the surgery I went through – my mastectomy scar and reconstructed breast (it does look near perfect and I’m more used to my new body part 2 years on).
I’m also on medication for the next five to ten years, and at times that’s hard. It has triggered an intense, medically induced menopause. (Menopause is tough, throw cancer and medicine into the mix it’s a whole other challenge plus the vague 5-10 year timeframe is not helpful)
And then there’s the fear that lingers in the background. I don’t know many people who’ve had cancer who aren’t on some sort of alert when something doesn’t feel quite right. It’s easy to worry about the slightest ache or pain.
Its not all bad
BUT these things aside, along the ride there have been so many interesting and positive things that have come out of it.
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I’ve spent more time with friends and family.
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My work-life balance is less work and more life.
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I’m helping others.
I’ve become involved in a cause to help others navigating menopause after cancer, like I am. I’m using skills and experience built up over many years in retail and applying them to a different organisation.
And I’m helping other business and solopreneurs to achieve their ambitions.
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Along the way I’ve met new people, new friends and a whole new network. I’ve been met with so much kindness from near strangers as well as those who I’ve known for a lot longer.
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I re-ignited my creative side – I’ve found myself immersed in knitting, keen to learn new techniques and make new things. Also, the sewing machine has been out again too….there will be more creations to come.
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And I’ve changed a few things within my lifestyle – practicing gratitude, prioritising exercise, eating nutritiously, staying hydrated. I’m not perfect, but I’m trying to keep stress at bay and stay fit and healthy.
It took breast cancer twice to get where I am now – happy, healthy and looking forward to the f word! (The future and FIFTY!)
